lonely cuz it’s hard here….

After going through stuff alone n trying to fight to defend ur place here, it still comes off as rather pointless n I’m either in totally anger n injustice from all this how they do as they please without hearing me out or completely drained in trying to find my “way” out again since ur just exhausted from whats going on here….

I don’t feel like ever being in normal fam again…it’s rly awful plus I had just hard night n time ppl….

​My distant relatives also don’t fight for me nor I ever got anything out of the heartfelt letters I brought them…. I always explained how it’s rly here…. But none of them seems to care or take it serious..

They have their stuff going on assuming I can just always “handle” it here.

It’s mentally taxing n unfair but not everyone will understand since their atmosphere is not like this. I’m so tired of being stepped over here yk… I feel like I don’t deserve to deal w this forever but end likely won’t come to this either.

Totally stuck. Hard not to feel “helpless”..

But then u ask, for how long…