depression

no one probably cares but i need to get this out of me
earlier today i got *** off at my antidepressants bc of its side effects and i started panicking and evantually stabbed them with a fork out of anger and distress but i accidentally stabbed my finger once then i started bleeding and crying

It’s ok. Your finger with heal. Can you possibly get a walk-in appointment with your Doctor Who prescribed it today?
Once you work with your doctor to find just the right AD, It will cause you to feel more like yourself, not less. That reaction was your body fighting back saying this is not me.
It’s very frustrating that Most everyone has to try 5 to 7 different ADs Until you find the right one at the right levels. But you are so worth it. Please keep trying and Just be honest with your doctor and tell them it made you overreact and it made you impulsive I made you angry at the medication itself and that’s enough details.
You are understandably very upset today because All you want to do is feel like yourself. And depression lies to us and makes us feel like being way down or like being impulsive or other things is who we are… But it really really isn’t and that’s why you reacted your body react reacted like it was fighting for its life , like the real, you was fighting to get out of the cage. I’ve been in that cage and it is so incredibly hard and I wanted to get out so bad .
It was helpful to me too remember that everybody has problems with their cage . Have you ever had a doctor measure of things in your blood for an annual physical? Some people have naturally high cholesterol, A naturally weak immune system, Some people can’t process sugar , some people have headaches all the time or their kidneys Don’t work right. If we met here, It’s because our cage is a brain That is low on One or more natural chemicals. We need sunlight, We need exercise, And We don’t need just any AD we need the right AD And there are literally dozens that might be the right one for you.
You keep trying and keep fighting By going straight to the doctor as soon as you know that this AD Does *not* make you feel like yourself, It makes you feel less like yourself than ever. Do not concede that you’re going to have to live with terrible side effects. You’re not! Look forward to the day when You say “ Wow, I tried several and I Almost gave up.. But I kept trying, and I can’t believe That I’ve found what makes me feel completely normal. I feel like I’m not on any medication. I feel alive today.. and I felt normal for several days in a row now so I might just try a quick little smile And saying hi to A few people today and do the same thing tomorrow and be excited that before Long someone is going to have a little smile and say hi back… And that will be the start Of a new friend ❤️
I praying for you right now for real