Toxic family problems (awful time)

Hey ppl,

I just felt so down that I cried over this spilled milk again.

Yk what I mean,

I’m so tired cuz it lead nowhere….

​It’s either fighting or silence..u retreat or speak up which I now fought more but it seems like no matter how u wanna have your needs met, they aint wanna compromise n would rather step over me cuz two on one, what u always expect.

Even therapy’s resources are falling short for this. It’s either you leave (which I can’t) or keeping up w boundaries (again, hard time doing so…) n do sacrifice ur free identity even more of not being urself but being closed off no matter how good or bad it is around u.

All is energy taking in its own matter.

It’s a questioning of what makes sense anymore. It’s so frustrating that I got tired of it. Here u come to live w ur relatives just to see their faces unmasked. The truth came again…. I wish they got help too !!

It all sucks way worse I can say here.

I wanted to go into some forgotten woods to not wake up again. No wonder u feel like giving up. It’s so messed up here.

I dunno how I’ll keep up when they get even older. It’s year of chasing after freedom u don’t seem to ever get!!

My views are pretty altered by this time it’s all distorted bcs of them.

It’s always for others we suffer this much.

I’m so tired. Cuz it hurts when u got nobody to fight alongside u.

Nor friends, not siblings, it’s just ypu by yourself trying to “save” yourself from every situation either by speaking up or retreating into silence. 

What’s even worth more now?

🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 any support n comfort would be greatly appreciated…