Tired of myself

Dearest @Juderoad

I understand, dear, that your mind can sometimes become a relentless critic, filling your soul with feelings of loneliness and inadequacy. It's truly challenging to grapple with these uncomfortable emotions, so I'm here to listen and offer some perspective.

It sounds like quite a journey, and isolation can certainly make things even more difficult. It's natural to desire meaningful connections, and the longing for friendships and someone who genuinely cares about you is entirely human. 💜

You have a lot to offer the world! Sometimes, it takes time to find the right people who appreciate and share those interests. Don't let past experiences or negative remarks hold you back. You are not a bother, and your presence in the world is appreciated.

I can see that you've been through some tough times. Healing takes time. Remember, you're not a loser, and you are deserving of love and forgiveness. It might take time to find that safety and connection you desire, but don't lose hope.

Please, do continue to reach out and share your thoughts and feelings. There are people who care and will listen, even if it seems challenging to find them right now. You're not alone in your struggles, and brighter days can come. You are worthy of love and friendship. 😊

@Juderoad

If you quit doing all the things like trying to find other to talk about interests and try to engage with new people but wish you had people in your life,

Seems to be a contradiction if i want to learn a musical instrument but after 2 lessons decide i am not good cannot do it. Yet i think at some point i can play  instrument anyway. 

remote work can be  isolating and finding a friend with like interests can be hard for everyone not just you.

Almost all groups i have been in have people who talk over or do not really listen often because they are more interested in themselves. Chances are IMO you will continue to run into these. i have a "friend" who has told us the same story often growing more dramatic at least 5 times when she is present,  i only chat superficial and others in group i can relate to on a deeper level. 

i too have thought others were doing so much but when i have joined the gatherings and such were not at all like i imagined and i was often bored. i had been envious of them for nothing. 

we are are own worst critics and in order to even that out i find we can also be our own best cheer squad