@egret35 Hi there!, I´m very sorry to hear about you being down.
About dating and finding a proper person for your life I consider it a risk activity, doesn´t matter if is online or analogic. The process of meet new people is stressfull because you have to be ready to be rejected, sometimes without explanation, or with the stress of being "kind" all the time to help the meeting phase develops properly.
Online dating can be complex to start a conversation due to the big incoming messages people receive, and the very little window you have to make the other person answer you back, depending mostly on some seconds review of your picture and the originality of your message. You can be the worst person in the world and have success in those apps if you manage good those scenarios, and opposite, so please try to give the online refusals less seriously due that the other person is sieged by messages, and the little information you can give in a message has nothing related with your real value as a person.
Love is one of the most beautiful feelings a human being can feel, but sometimes our pressure to find it make us so unhappy that it may be not worthy to keep that pressure.
When you get stronger keep looking if is what you desire, and try to see it more like a game, than a "survival need", because anything that involves other person, all what happens is not 100% in our hands to control, and neither have fast results as we desire.
Wish you the best and give you strength to keep going.