Neverending battle of my mind.

Good morning, or evening.

TW: Food, hopelessness.

I'm posting here, hopefully I can connect with someone or at least relate to people. I haven't had peace for years now. Constantly being around toxic negative energy at my house, through fighting or improper relations. I also have a lot of difficulty with my self image, and confidence.

I keep beating myself up over not getting myself out of this loop. I have to find a place to go, even if I'm going to struggle financially. I don't know how much longer I can keep taking this mental abuse. It's all from me either way, it's no one else's fault. I also haven't been taken care of myself really, it's hard to when the people I'm trying to avoid are constantly in the areas that have the things I need, at home.

I also struggle with trusting. I'm already opposed to talking about things now, because talking hasn't gotten me anywhere except here still.