My life is a nonstop depressing cycle and i feel hopeless

TW- mentions of suicide (a bit)

i have been struggling with pretty much nearly everything typical people do my whole life including my mental health. My dad who has worked as a doctor is putting it all down to oh its just behaviour apparently hes gone from i have a learning difficulty to no its now just my behaviour and negative attitude of life when nothing ever works out for me how am i meant to be happy like i dont understand. hes a hypocrite. he found out i was suicidal from the police he didnt ask questions just assumed its because of me not being prepared for my theory test. im always in this house and i hate it. it doesnt seem like theres anyone genuine who cares for me and then thats where i think that i must be a bad person with a bad life. I stay in this house caring for my brothers cooking cleaning food shopping i have no life of my own. Yet its like everyone wants to trap me in a box but according to them i did that to myself. its all lies.