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agreeableWatermelon8680 December 8th, 2022
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So, whenever I feel down, I write poems of darkness and hate, is that bad? Because they don't make me feel better. I'm posting my latest one here:

I'm guessing I should put trigger warning because it's not a happy poem.

DOWN

I call out,

Come, COME!

Can you hear me?

The sounds of the night drain me,

The embodiments of its silence restrain me,

How long shall I live this wretched dream?

How long until I accept reality?

How long until I finally find peace?

How long?

I find myself fighting,

Constraining, rejecting, detesting,

Was this world made for me or someone else?

Was I meant to be or nothing?-less,

I cry my heart and soul through my eyes,

How long can my vessels produce my sober bind?

How far can I go with this corrupted mind?

Yet I wait,

Wait for the day when I'm happy,

Happy enough to live,

Happy enough to love,

Happy enough to laugh until I loose my breath,

Perhaps they hate me too,

Perhaps I was never meant to be,

Perhaps I was only made to believe,


That there's a world out there waiting for me.

@agreeablewatermelon8680

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Deni6104 December 8th, 2022
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Hey dear watermelon:> I am writing this cause I had a same experience. instead of writing about your bad moods or dark things which are in your mind try this one: Consider that you have all the things that you want specially good feelings and happiness. Then start to write a "thankyou" letter because all of this dreamy things that you assume them as real things. I started it last night and you have no idea how much today was better than yesterday. I want to do it again. Hope it works for you too. Good luck♡

agreeableWatermelon8680 OP December 9th, 2022
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@Deni6104

Thank you I'll be sure to try that.

bestVase7265 December 10th, 2022
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Any writing can be good because it gets stuff out on paper rather than in your head.

You said writing it doesn't make you happy, but what exactly does it make you feel? Maybe there are some other emotions in there (especially ones about self worth) that you could turn around a bit and make even the negative pouring out feel more helpful. @agreeableWatermelon8680

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