Managing relapses
Over a year ago, i shared my depression and anxiety recovery journey in one of my threads… it’s like a breath of fresh air from me - full of hope and gratitude.
It scares me now to be filled with anxiety and intense sadness that might indicate a relapse… I tried bawling my eyes out earlier, and then reminded myself who i am outside of these waves of sadness i fear i let take control of me. I was energetic, happy i got a second chance at life - happy learning, being in new environment (outside of my comfort zone). I’m afraid of losing her. I was appalled this trigger had ripped open old wounds…
im at a loss now, but i know i’ll figure out somehow throughout the day… maybe weeks, maybe months… For now, i let this fear paralysed me
Sometimes I find myself obsessing a little too much with the whole CBT and ACT exercises lmao, been reading a lot of self-help for years too, and it's getting boringggggg
Sooooo I'd love some fiction books/movies/vids/games recommendations, even cooking recipessss lol. I know it deviates from depression support, or does it?? dk
anyway I'm into sweet n sour tofu lately - pretty affordable to whip and has good macros
recipe:
- 1 firm tofu
pat dry, slice horizontally in half and then slice vertically into column cubes
transfer them into a container with 2 tablespoons of corn starch/flour (add more if needed), shake it and make sure they are well coated
pan fry till golden brown, set aside
- 1 onion, chop into chucks
- 1 bellpepper, and half of a pineapple - if they're not within your budget, leave them out
grease the pan with maybe one tbsp of oil, sweat the onions for 1 min. then add in chopped bell pepper and pineapple chunks
- Sauce: 3 tbsp of ketchup, 2tbsp of white vinegar, 1 tbsp of sugar, 1 tbsp of oil, 1 tbsp of corn flour/starch, 100ml water
pour in the SAUCE and simmer it with the chopped onion. bell peppers, pineapple chunks for about 2 mins
once the sauce thickens and portion looks enough to coat the pan-fried tofu, dunk in the tofu. mix them well and it's ready to EATTTT
I'm leaving the recipe here in case depression hits and erases my ability to cook and enjoy cooking.
@yellowIdea7518 in a similar boat rn. how things can change so quickly. I know it is unrealistic to be happy all the time. but still.