Just Numb
I've been feeling "fine" and just in auto pilot after having a major meltdown about a month ago. I don't feel stressed, anxious, depressed anymore. I just don't feel. I feel nothing. Just numb. Empty. Alone. Even my thoughts decided to leave me this time. No thoughts, no feelings. Nothing.
When I'm out and about, I put on a mask and pretend to be someone. Someone happy. Someone who got everything together. Someone who feel. But when I'm back at home, back to emptiness, numbnes, and nothingness.
Today, on a weak attempt of feeling something, I took the scissors and went straight to the mirror. *snap* I guess, I decided to cut my hair. Shorter and shorter. I kept cutting. Still nothing. Sigh.. fine! At least I tried..
@FluffyBakedPotato
What is confining you? What is one small thing you can do to make yourself taste a moment of freedom to be truly yourself today?
When I've been completely blank like you're describing, it was because none of my choices were my own. I made one tiny move toward being free, after a while that lead to another....