I've done my best.

I really have gave my all, been doing that for many years, trying everything that has been suggested. I know the common response is to say that I haven't tried hard enough or the right thing or something that makes me responsible for the way I feel. All I know is that I tried my best. I don't think it's meant to be. I'm not meant to be happy. If I could accept that I would be but because it's true I can't accept it. I don't know how to see these after I post them but I'm not looking for anything anyway. Just wanted to say that I really am ready to give up.