I'm Tired
I'm so emotionally and mentally exhausted. Nothing is going according to plan. It's tiring, really. Some days I feel like screaming and smashing my phone to the ground. While other days I feel like cussing and crying my eyes out. But I don't. I suppress my emotions. I've worked so hard to stay clean but now all I can think about is having a drink and popping some pills. I just wanna be numb. I don't want to feel this frustration, fear and anxiety anymore.
@AGirlWithAWeirdName
I think it is very brave to write it out....... i think many are in your shoes....... IMO people these days hold too much back smile when they feel like screaming.
slowly and surely Many people want to numb themselves not just those with previous substance issues...........
All of it can be quite tiring. Unluckily numbing it doesn't make it go away. Sometimes doing activities can help a bit. What kinds of things do you like to do?@AGirlWithAWeirdName