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AGirlWithAWeirdName
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PathStep 14 Compassion hearts106 Forum posts23 Forum upvotes58 Current upvotes58 Age GroupAdult Last activeSeptember, 2024 Member sinceMay 11, 2023
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Its keeps getting harder
Alcohol & Drug Addiction Support / by AGirlWithAWeirdName
Last post
 September 23rd
...See more I've worked so hard to get clean and stay clean. Life, however, keeps making this sobriety journey so hard. Even as I write right now, the urge the drink is so strong. Its like I can't just get a break and everything that has been happening to me is just directing me towards a bottle. I don't know how long I can hold on. Fighting this battle is hard, fighting is alone is harder!!
It's probably bad
Addiction Support / by AGirlWithAWeirdName
Last post
 November 11th, 2023
...See more I was sober for 7 months but now I feel like my sobriety has gone down the drain. Couple of days back I got into this intense arguments or conversation with my partner about me not wanting to carry out the conventional duties of a woman. To be very honest, I have no issues with doing most of the things expected but in my part of the world, I have seen how women get treated once the subject themselves to the Almighty conventional duties of a woman. I have made several compromises for him and even attempted to adjust my personality just so we don't have issues but it feels like whatever i do is never enough because there's always one thing to complain about or the other. The fact that he has now made this his way or the highway kind of conversation is really triggering for me. I mean, he has been the only stable thing in my life for over 9 months and to lose that, I'm not sure I'm ready for that. The past 2-3 months have been so exhausting and his incessant desire to always talk about everything drives me nuts. Frankly, I don't like talking about our fights, I prefer to just apologize and move on. I mean, what's the point of talking about it if at the end of the day you're still going to make me out to be the one at fault. Isn't it just better to apologize and just move on. But because he prefers to talk about everything, he makes us do it even when I don't want to. I've told him over and again that I do not like talking about our issues but I don't think he cares about that, I always have to do what he wants. I guess I got so exhausted, mentally stressed and emotionally distraught and I just wanted to feel calm because it felt like I had a lot of loads on my shoulders and like the world was spinning so fast, I ended up smoking. Although it was just one time but I think we know better than to assume it will just be one time. I relapsed and I feel so guilty about it.
The Future
Anxiety Support / by AGirlWithAWeirdName
Last post
 August 27th, 2023
...See more Lately, I find myself worried and scared. I am at this stage of my life where I constantly question what would be my next move after bagging all these degrees. Everyone has high expectations of me and I feel this heavy weight on my shoulders. I don't know which is heavier - the fact that people have high expectations of me or the fact that some are waiting for me to mess up but I can't give them that satisfaction. To be honest, I don't know what to do after this. I've hidden under the umbrella of education for too long, and it's almost time up. I don't know, maybe I am just being dramatic...
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Depression Support / by AGirlWithAWeirdName
Last post
 June 1st, 2023
...See more I feel so drained. I have to go to work today but all I want to do is just stay in bed all day. My job requires constant human interaction and I am just not up for it today. I just wanna run somewhere far away and hide. I don't want anyone in my space or trying to figure me out. I really just want to be left alone. But tough luck huu? That's not going to happen. I'd have to put on the sweetest smile and act like I don't want scream at the top of my voice and disappear into oblivion.
I'm Tired
Depression Support / by AGirlWithAWeirdName
Last post
 May 31st, 2023
...See more I'm so emotionally and mentally exhausted. Nothing is going according to plan. It's tiring, really. Some days I feel like screaming and smashing my phone to the ground. While other days I feel like cussing and crying my eyes out. But I don't. I suppress my emotions. I've worked so hard to stay clean but now all I can think about is having a drink and popping some pills. I just wanna be numb. I don't want to feel this frustration, fear and anxiety anymore.
I Spilled the Tea
Anxiety Support / by AGirlWithAWeirdName
Last post
 May 25th, 2023
...See more I hear a lot of people say "be your true self" "always communicate in your relationship" "let your partner know how you want to be loved." For the first time in my life, I summoned the courage to tell him last night and then I ran offline. Since I told him, my anxiety level has gone over the roof. I froze my WhatsApp just so I don't see his response because I am afraid of what it would be. I'm afraid because what I told him could be seen as messed up to others but what can I do? That's just how I am. Oh well....I wish everyone a great day.
A Difficult Time
Relationship Stress / by AGirlWithAWeirdName
Last post
 May 18th, 2023
...See more My boyfriend is traveling for a week. This is going to be the longest we've been apart. I'm dreading it and I can already feel the misery ahead. I love him so much and I'm used to seeing him every now and then. Even if I don't see him, I am comforted with the knowledge that he is around. I don't know how to cope with what's ahead. I'm thinking of journalling each day and giving him the journal when he returns. Although it feels dumb but I'm literally willing to try anything that would make me feel close to him.
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