I have really hard anxious about conflicts
There were a lot of conflicts in my life, all of them ended in the end either badly, or in no way, or well, I live in a not very safe city or country, there are a lot of people who may want to harm me just for who I am (my classmates, my father, etc.), it seems to me that one day I will fight to the death and it will most likely be very soon because I constantly face bullying from teachers, students, and so on, I can defend myself, I can hurt in return, and even very much, but because of this, I have constant anxiety that someone will definitely harm me, and most often it is justified by the school I went to, it is useless to talk to my parents about this, I just don't know who and where to turn to help, so I do it here 💔
@TenderPerson
Wow, there is just something so genuine, strong, pure and good about your heart. I was just thinking the same thought today, I am too tender for the life I have around me. I am told to be tough, so I build myself tough, but really I don't want to be tough. I wish everybody was kind so I could always just be who I really am, I'm just kind. That sounds like you too.
It made me feel good today that I read what you wrote. I will pray for you right now that a miracle happens in your life soon. You deserve some friends who are VERY good person like you.
Dear God, please take care of TenderPerson very, very, very soon.
Thank you so much for your mental support! When i read your reply I felt much better, I understand you, I grew up in an environment where those who did not want or could not hurt anyone were humiliated and bullied, a lot of time has passed, but I still habitually show myself from the harshest side possible, afraid that someone will want to hurt me, because they will think that I will not hurt in return, but I don't really want to hurt anyone, I'm a 16-year-old guy with a large build, some of my friends says that i look like a bouncer, but in fact im inside tender and softheart, It's just my way of protecting myself, and also sorry for not answering you for long time! I appreciate you
By the way, I really felt better, maybe it's because you prayed for me, I will also pray to Allah that everything would be fine in your life, I wish you feel better and that you would never have to hurt someone in return again, and that no one would hurt you ❤️