I don't know what to do with my life
Life is getting draining each day and I don't think I want to live any longer. I am in my last year of college and I don't know my next step in life. Yesterday I was sitting at a cafe with my friends and they were talking about where they want to move after college and one of them asked me which on of them am I going to follow and I responded " i will be okay, i need to figure out my life." But I was shocked because do they see me as the friend who just follows them around. Then I realized that they know what they want in life and I am just there getting through each day with not a single plan. I just feel so behind in life and it's just making me sad, this morning while getting ready for school I was crying so bad, and I feel so embarrassed cause I am getting older I can't keep crying for stuff like that. I just feel like all my friends have something going on for them and I am just there. Really wish i was not born.