How to stop being so hard on myself
I always want the best of myself, ever since that incident, that's what I thought. I have to be independent at all cost and don't rely on others. As a student, everything must be the best. Even though my grades are "above average" I'm still not satisfied with myself. Nothing is ever enough. Grades is just one thing, little things in life as well. Small little mistakes that shouldn't be made are unforgivable. I feel like I'm on the verge of insanity (again).
I'm completely burnt out now, but I can't stop now and recover. If I stop, there's no way I'm able to catch up with life later on. If I don't stop, I'm definitely going to relapse back into suicidal thoughts again.
I don't want to go back into the void that I worked so hard to climb out again. How do I stop?