Depression loop
I'm depressed, feel like I always was sort of, but ignoring the issue. My therapist opened my eyes on my family, and I feel a huge burden on my shoulders. I'm trying to heal and make my life better, but my parents always push me back. It's like they don't want me do feel peaceful and happy. It's been hard to study, my grades went downhill, and everybody expects me to act as if depression wasn't there. To just " act normally" . I feel disconnected from people, can't be in the present moment. I regret those times when everything was going well, when I was so close to healing. There are times when loving myself feels hard, and I can't stop self pitying. Others where I feel so motivated and amazing. But the worst is "are you okay?" because I know they just want me to say yes and don't actually care. I can't stop envying people with healthy families. Who don't know what it's like to be depressed. It's not just sadness, it's feeling stuck in the same loop, worth less, angry, tired and emotionnally drained.
@oliveSailboat9838
i'm glad to hear your therapist has been able to offer you such insight. and yes it's true that depression is hardly sadness and it feels more like a loop.
I think I can be of help to you
@oliveSailboat9838 Hi! Reading your message, I feel that if your family and 'friends' cannot or will not give you the support that you need, it's time to look elsewhere. Try to incorporate activities in your daily routine that would make it possible to meet new people, people that do not insist that you have to behave 'as normal', or that you should say 'yes I am OK'. These people exist, but it can be a challenge to find them. You'll be glad that you made that effort though.