Depression is kicking me today

My relationship feels like its falling apart all because im exhausted, depressed, broken, and just all around angry.

I had a friendship blow up into pieces. The friend decided instead of talking to me that she would call my fiancé. I am the only one working in my house right now so im physically exhausted and he starts talking at me about the things that happened. Most of which were not true. In my exhausted angry depressed state i lashed out and blew up on him.

I kept saying in my head that if i didnt wanna be on earth before i definitely dont now. I feel like even the person who said they would be in my corner is no where near my corner. I feel so alone.

I apologized to him for my outburst but he doesnt really like apologizing. So i dont know what else to say or do. Im just lost