Depression

I don't even know what to say, but I feel like I need to or I'll explode. My depression is getting worse by the day and I there's nothing I can do. I'm out of money for therapy, and I probably won't be able to afford for a couple of months, so I really don't know what to do. I feel such a heaviness in my chest, it's almost hard to breath. I have nothing to fill my days, I'm looking for a job but I can't get one. It feels like my life is so empty and I'm just tired. I miss my old crush so much as well. Things went south with us and it's no contact now but he was such a big part of my life. And I miss my friends back home. And there's just so much going on in my mind. I really don't know what to do.