why... how.
I have had so many many unfortunate things happen within the past 3 months or so that it is really sort of mind boggling. I've moved across country. I have lost custody of my children. My ex-husband has manipulated them and lied to them to the point that they no longer speak to me. My mother is struggling with alzheimers and the burden of that is greater than I thought it would be. I've ended a relationship with someone that I loved because he was being dishonest with me. I lost my job - unexpectedly and shockingly.
In spite of all of this, I actually feel ok. I'm taking my time and trying to get back on my feet. I have moments of stress and anxiety. Sometimes I feel sad; but, mostly, I'm just trying to make sure I get things taken care of. I don't understand how it can be that I'm not completely falling apart. I'm grateful that I'm not but I'm not sure how it's happening.
I'm really sorry to hear about all that has happened to you. None of it is easy at all and I salute you on keeping your head above the water (despite the moments of stress and anxiety).
Different people have different levels of something called 'reslience', which is the ability to adapt to and handle hardships in life. Some people seem to soldier on even when life is falling apart while others find it difficult to handle stress, and that's totally fine as we are all unique. Perhaps your resilience is simply very high and that is what is helping you through your rough patch. Of course, if you ever feel like things are too much and you'd like a Listening ear, you can always find it here at 7cups on the forums, group chat or Listeners. Take care!