Loneliness is impacting my work
I don't know how many times i'm gonna create the same topic or talk about it with a listener. It doesn't help. Nothing seems to help but i need to at least vent for now.
I feel a crushing loneliness every single day. I have been diagnosed with depression and i'm nearly at the max dose of my antidepressants.
They keep me somewhat sane during the day so i can get my work done which i truly love and enjoy.
I felt a bit better when i started working there since i also really enjoy being with my coworkers and it made me forget about this horrible feeling for a while... at least until i'm home and it all begins anew.
In all my lifetime i haven't been loved one single time and it pains me to even see a picture of a couple by now. Sadly when a new coworker joined a year ago as the time went by i fell for her and of course in the end i got rejected.
It was to be expected. I don't even know why i felt surprised by this... i just got my hopes up since we talked a lot and have many things in common. i'm still being eaten up by guilt and the pain of rejection. Now i also feel lonely and worthless when i'm at work.
Basically i'm no longer at peace anywhere. I feel like *** all the time. I try my best to keep concentrated but i can't stand this much longer.
I'm afraid to make mistakes. I'm afraid of what happens if i have to endure another year of this. I'm stressed. I'm lonely and i'm scared to go to sleep since in my dreams i'm haunted by nightmares of having a loving relationship only to wake up and feel crushed yet again.
Everything is constant stress and i don't want this to impact my work space. So far i haven't made any mistakes but it's only a matter of time now...
I hope someone takes the time to answer... i don't know what to do anymore.
@eternallyworthless
First, you are very aware of your feelings and emotions. Feeling lonely or (alone) can be feel painful and makes you feel unwanted. But you are not. Life will always be a constant stress or on the go go go, but there are ways to de-stress and coping strategies to help yourself when you feel that your levels of anxiety are getting a bit much. You are not alone in feeling this way, I feel it too. The pressure of being alone, the depression and the not wanting to do much, lost of motivation and not being at peace with myself. What I'm learning is self love and self care truly can help you better your life.@kindHug676
Can you tell me why you think i'm not unwanted? Is there a reason or just something to make me feel better?
No offense. I just don't feel it. I don't see it. There is no one.
How do i love myself? I don't even know what love feels like. Self care is difficult... i feel so worthless. I don't even care about myself anymore.
@eternallyworthless
I hear you and when you feel alone or depressed etc it can effect many things in your life and yes when i was at my worst i was making errors simple stupid mistakes that could have ended my job but i had a very sympathetic boss..
i wish i had great advice in making friends or finding others to talk to ....
i think when we focus too hard on something it seems more elusive.... I always have met friends when i was NOT looking for them and for romantic situations same deal i was not focused on it ... if i had been i might have chosen better lol
Hi, i'm Filippo from Italy. I can feel your pain.
I have a story of depression and anxiety. When i was sick, for six months, i couldn't work (at the time i was a student). I was almost all day in bed.
But... I was refusing medicines. And when i accepted antidepressants, in a couple of months i was feeling much better, and i was able to return at a part time study.
My biggest fear before taking medicine was: what if i take them, and i continue to feel bad?
So i think it can be very difficult when you already take medicine but you still feel bad.
I think that it's a very good thing when you enjoyed being with your coworkers, and now i think that it also can be very painful if even that island of good feelings went gone.
I also think it can be very stressful the fear of losing your job, losing collegues and economic support.
❤️
Sorry for the bad graphic format, it was my first answer
i understand what your going through I am going through similar situations and it’s rough I have been depending on God as my strength when I feel down I isolate myself with my Bible and read. I will be lifting you in prayer and I will listen to you anytime
@Marisol8023
i understand what your going through I am going through similar situations and it’s rough I have been depending on God as my strength when I feel down I isolate myself with my Bible and read. I will be lifting you in prayer and I will listen to you anytime
Thank you! I appreciate it. I hope you don't take it as offensive but i would love to ask a faithful person like you a question - why would god allow a good/kind person to even feel this way? Is that not a contradiction in itself? What good could it ever do to make a person suffer?
I don’t have all the answers but I know when bad things happen God has a bigger purpose sometimes that we don’t even see! Two years ago I was watching my son drowning in the river an old man showed up and helped him out now they are as close as father and son. The accident was horrible but the old man needed my son and this is how a beautiful thing happened out of a tragedy. Trust God
You are seen, and heard.
This life we live is not easy, I can relate to feeling lonely. It’s very hard to cope with somedays. Please remind yourself that in your heart you are loved. When I am in nature, I feel surrounded with love. Do you notice a change in how you feel if you take a walk in the woods?
I unfortunately have caused pain to a loved one, that I cannot fix, he said, “the damage is done.” It is one of the most painful experiences of my life I’m now enduring. We have a 13-year old, and we live over a thousand miles from the rest of our family. We are now separating and I am afraid, alone, and hurting. I cry almost everyday, I even cried at the gym the other day. I couldn’t even stop, I felt embarrassed but forced myself to continue. I can understand your pain. Eternally, I wish I could tell you it will feel better tomorrow, I can only send you good thoughts and offer a virtual hug, know that you’re not alone. 🙏🤍
@snowash333
Well i may be seen but surely not heard.
Yes. I feel even more isolated. I feel the absolute worst when i'm outside since there is nothing i can do to keep me occupied. I have to listen to music all the time otherwise the feelings or isolation come back. When i'm at work i'm not alone so i at least have a break there but then there's the corworker again...
You said you have a 13 year old? So why not focus on him / her? You won't be alone at least. You'll always have your kid!
Thank you very much! :)
@eternallyworthless Welcome to my world , Worthless.😥
@eternallyworthless DUDE you said you like to draw. So draw a story about yourself. Lonely guy meets a girl of your dreams. Make a story and profit off your pain. At least it will be better than reality and you can make the perfect lover in your drawings and stories. Don't focus on what you don't have in life so much focus on what you do have...pain. Use it to your advantage. I went through same things. I give same suggestion to all other lonely people on this forum. Okay, hope it helps. Help others who also lonely through feeling less alone through your stories of your pain. God bless.
