Advice: Go to work?
I work part time as an art teacher. Since school let out for Christmas break last year, my insomnia and mental health have gotten much worse. I'm also trying to get sober. I've gotten very little sleep lately and been having breakdowns and have not had the mental strength to grade and prepare lesson plans- like since school restarted 2025, if I try to focus on lesson preparation, I will either zone out or have an anxiety attack. These last 2 days have been particularly rough. I am scheduled to work Thursday and Friday. I am not ready and I do not have the mental strength to properly prepare lessons needed. I also do not have the strength to create sub plans. If I do manage to sleep tomorrow night, I don't know if I will be able to recover enough to wake up at 6:30 and then rush in to maybe or maybe not do all the work I need to do. I'm not thinking very well because of the insane insomnia. Should I: Do my best to sleep tonight and go in tomorrow and Friday? Go in tomorrow to see if I can do it and then let myself take Friday off if I realize I can't? Take tomorrow off despite having no real sub plans? I think the real problem is the lack of sub plans and since I'm so mentally drained right now, I'm not in the best position to fix that and so I'm scared.
@determinedSea4370
Looks like i am seeing this after the days in question .... did you go in to work?
i think it is different for people when i feel not up to something and debate myself on calling out or going ... guilt usually makes me go... am i doing my best work NO .... but i also have issues with dealing with things if i stay home.
Have you spoken to a doctor about the insomnia?
@toughTiger6481 Hey thanks for checking in. I did go to work. I'm just like you in that the guilt makes me go even if I feel terrible thst night or morning. I have so much anxiety around teaching and the insomnia doesn't help with the negative thoughts, but I somehow always transform into this brighter version of myself while actually teaching and perform fine. I crashed afterward of course lol. My sleep hasn't improved, so I'm trying to get back on sleeping meds.