Schizophrenia ..? (Please help)
Schizophrenia or..?
Hello.. I don’t really know where else to turn with this..
I have been experiencing things that make me think I might have schizophrenia
i am a severe hypochondriac, so I thought that I was probably just overthinking due to that
lately I have been experiencing more rapid hallucinations. I see shadows out of the corner of my eye, things running across the floor, doors opening when the whole time they’ve been closed, stuff moving.
i don’t experience much audio, sometimes I’ll hear whispers or my name called but I always thought all of these were normal.
i do have voices in my head that say negative things, but I’ve always regarded them is intrusive thoughts due to my bipolar disorder.
I have severe mood issues. One minute I love someone and the next I want to block them on everything and cut them off for no apparent reason. I feel like I need everyone to praise and almost kind of worship me for some reason. I believe everyone I meet is in love with me. I don’t know why, but I can’t differentiate platonic from romantic.
if my friends go a day or two without talking to me, or if I think someone’s giving me a weird look or tone, I automatically assume they hate me and want me to die.
I’ve recently started what I assumed was heavy dissociation, but now I am worried it’s something more. I will lock into staring off into space for long periods of time, until I snap out of it, and I will just stare at the wall. It’ll slowly move and morph around me as I stare at it. I sometimes see shapes form in whatever I stare at, nothing super visible, and if I lose focus it disappears. If my friends start moving me around while I’m like this, I’ll stay in the position they moved me without thinking about it, like a plastic doll.
i don’t know if this stuff is all normal dissociative bipolar behavior or something else. Any expertise would be super appreciated…
Edit: some other stuff that I experience but won’t go super in detail about unless asked:
>Out of touch with reality, I sometimes can not tell what is real or if I’m actually alive
> severe speech impediment that has been getting worse over time (slurring, messing up vowels, blanking/switching mid sentence)
>extremely messy and disorganized
>apathetic/not empathetic or sympathetic
> non weight related eating disorder (binge, fast, binge, fast)
> socially awkward, struggle to hold conversations after a certain point
> struggle with daily hygienic tasks or just leaving my bed in general, no matter how badly I want to.
No therapy or motivational pep talks have been able to help me. I have tried different methods but after a while I cave in and give up and can never follow anything through. Are these signs of psychosis?
Bipolar and schizophrenia both can have psychosis. The difference is bipolar psychosis is from mood cycling while schizophrenia is not. The treatment is the same. Medication for psychosis followed by medication for any remaining symptoms or side effects plus therapy and assistance