Bipolar Disorder and feeling hopeless
So long story short, I have bipolar type one and I am on psych meds for it. They ARE working, but I'm almost 30 and I have no drivers license (just a permit I've never had my license) I've been working dead end jobs for ten years and I have no social outlet.
What is a good way to make genuine friends who truly care and want me around? I can't tell who is real and who is fake. I have a HUGE heart and it takes a lot to make me snap but my temper is all that people choose to see and it is VERY frustrating. I'm not a bad person, but yet people hate me over high school drama and refuse to forgive and forget. (I'm not the same person I was a decade ago, and I'm trying to get out of this town but I don't have the ability to move yet.) I have somewhere else to go thank GOD.
@BlueMoon1994
"I have a HUGE heart and it takes a lot to make me snap but my temper is all that people choose to see and it is VERY frustrating."
This hits home...Me too
You're going to be alright...You are never alone
Have you ever been blocked or ghosted because people don't understand and won't even give you a chance to explain your situation?That has been a vicious cycle my entire life and now I don't trust people because I think "how long is it going to take the next person to abandon me" I keep my distance and I used to be very social until I was used abused and kicked to the curb like trash multiple times.
@BlueMoon1994As @SoOnToBe2928 said, Agreed.
Having a HUGE heart is good! We need people like you in this world that can be so cruel at times.
I too have been negatively labeled and all the people from my school time were not the best people. We don't need that kind of negativity in our lives.
We have faith in you, we believe in you, and you have proven how good a person you are “I'm not the same person I was a decade ago”. You are not alone and we are here with you to support you.
If I could go anywhere, I would go to Lisbon, Portugal. The cost of living isn’t bad. The weather is well year round. Don’t need a car, they have public transportation.
Where would you go?
Thank you, if I had the funds to support myself I would get out of the state I live in and never come back.
@BlueMoon1994
You are welcome
I hear you!
That is exactly what I did. I have been back a few times to visit. But that is it.