Looking to chat with people w/ Bipolar 2
Hey guys. Wondering if there’s anyone out there who also has Bipolar 2 that would want to chat. What is depression like for you? What about hypomania? Or even mixed episodes?
Hope to hear from someone as sometimes I feel very alone in my bipolar struggles.
Love & Peace 💜☮️
Depression is really tough for me lately.
Hi, I have bipolar 2 and bpd. I feel very much alone as my family doesn't understand it. I was able to keep my bipolar unnoticed until I snapped when my wife was going through cancer, she's in remission and my bipolar has gotten worse.
I have BPD as well. It’s hard dealing with the daily emotional roller coaster. I have very strong emotions and once they start coming I usually spiral right down. I feel misunderstood too. I’m starting DBt therapy soon so I’m hoping it helps.
what do you find helps you when you start getting upset over something? I usually do qigong every day and write a gratitude journal. It’s helpful but I still can’t seem to stop those horrible downward spiral once they get a hold of me. Maybe I at least don’t break down as much as I would if I didn’t do those things.
@Spiritofthecheetah
Hi Spirit. I'm sorry to hear you're feeling alone in coping with your illness. I think it's easy for us to feel that way with an illness like bipolar. It's great you're reaching out.
Here is my personal experience with the various phases of it:
I have bipolar 2 with a strong tilt toward serious depression and mixed states. Depression, for me, interferes with my ability to think clearly/logically. My mind will be taken over by negative thoughts. I might fully believe, for example, that I am the worst human being on the planet and am a plague on anyone who knows me. I may have no memory of any times when I have not believed this to be the case. Depression also severely impacts my motivation, energy, and ability to tolerate stress and anxiety. It strips me of my ability to connect with anything that is meaningful to me. It dulls my emotions, or makes every single second of every waking minute feel like *** for no logical reason. It makes interacting with people - both those who are supportive and the general world - very difficult. I just want to avoid everyone. In short, it makes life feel miserable, punishing, and almost intolerable.
I don't tend to have traditional hypomanias which would feel nice sometimes - mine are generally mixed states. For me, that typically looks like some form of activated depression. Like, I'll still feel really terrible and depressed, but feel particularly anxious, agitated, energized, irritable, or angry on top of it. Or, I'll start flip-flopping all over the place mood and symptom-wise.
Do you want to say more about what your experience is like?
sophia
@sophia789 Yes to everything you described about what the depression is like. I just recently heard on a podcast by Haberman about bipolar disorder in general that people with BP 2 are stuck in the special *** of depression something like 70% of the time, versus the "luckier" people with the more well-known BP 1 who get to experience many more and longer duration manic episodes where they can at least function in their daily lives.
oh you have got it wrong. Us bipolar 1’s are not lucky at all. How could you even use the word lucky on this disorder. My medication prevents mania and any functioning that it numbs and I can’t function. I have the worst depression ever. Many meds I have tried has warning it can cause depression or suicidal thoughts so i don’t know where you got this information from.
Hey just looking for some support with people also dealing with bipolar
I have bipolar 2 with mixed manias and DID. I SO understand the struggle of mixed mania. I don't have the highs and lows like some people do... It's all kinds of emotions (positive and negative) and the thoughts they produce mixed together and in me that causes a form of apathy. It's like none of them can make sense rationally because there are too many conflicting emotions and thoughts and my brain is just like "nope." The apathy I go through is depression and all of the lack of desire and inability to function that it causes but because it is mixed I manically think about all I should be doing that I can't. Honestly, it's a mess!
@WakingAppy I completely relate to this. Apathy is a common state I am in during depressive episodes. I thought maybe I was just numb from medication but maybe its just my brain getting confused between all the emotions and resulting in zero.
I’m bipolar 2
Hi! Hope you're doing ok.
I too feel very alone. There isn't anyone around me with BPD.
As for me, I had to go back in time and look at all of the crazy things I had done over the years: the drinking and screaming on the highway at 90 mph, the huge theft spree I went on, the unplanned pregnancy... Those were my hypomanic episodes.
As for the depressive episodes, they fly under the radar. Thinking about it now I think they're usually triggered by something but oftentimes I just feel like a blob who wants to do nothing but melt into oblivion until I die. Went back and read my writing and man was it full of self-loathing, talks of suicide, and sadness.
I think I have a lot of mixed episodes...I think. I'm not sure what defines them. I do know I get irritable, have anger issues, and then will turn around and sob profusely, apologizing and feeling terrible about the kind of person I was.
Anyway, nice to meet you. Lol
Heyyy I'd love to talk if you wouldn't mind?
Hello there! I can have a chat with you
I also feel alone with my bipolar 2. I was diagnosed at 5 and have been reevaluated many times and it's always the same thing. My wife tries to understand but she just doesn't understand and it frustes us both. I've always been a strong woman that people look up to for guidance but they seem to forget that I'm mentally ill and need help with my own stuff. I mask so much by being a people person that it's physically and mentally exhausting.
