2022 10 02 Fresh Start

Today feels like a fresh start more than other Mondays. I've committed to getting organized with the goal of keeping my commitments to others. When I am in manic mode, I typically stay in my head and only keep commitments to myself, so this usually feels different. I do recognize the pattern, though, and know that it will take practice and effort to maintain.

When I am in manic mode, my executive functioning goes out the window. So, I like these times when life feels manageable.

One small item that helps is that I had no wine yesterday. I've been humming and hawing about this for a while now. The doctor that prescribed my Lamictal strongly suggested that I reduce my alcohol intake to 0 for most days. She says that alcohol makes the Lamictal less effective. I also took a look at my budget and time being what they are, I realized that I needed to save grocery money and reducing the amount of wine I buy can impact my bottom line. So, I feel like the writing is on the wall and I need to comply with a reduced/none alcohol consumption.

This is going to be hard, no doubt about it. I am usually all for change and doing better when 1) I don't have a doctor's appt, 2) I have money for wine, 3) I feel good/less groggy the next day because of no wine. A vicious cycle.

Well, I guess writing this out helps.