autism & honesty

i get really, really effed up when people lie

even in situations where neurotypicals think it's more polite to lie. i never agree with that, because i don't care about reputation or momentary embarrassment or even momentary hurt. no. i care about respect, and honor, and honesty. if you don't wanna hang out with me, tell me. if you don't love or even like me as much as you think i do you, tell me. if there's something you're ashamed of, tell me. if i make you uncomfortable, tell me. if there's a boundary i'm overstepping without realizing it, tell me. WHATEVER IT IS, I CANNOT JUST "TAKE THE HINT." AND I WOULD RATHER FEEL ANY RANGE OF EMOTIONS NOW THAN HAVE MY REALITY SHATTERED LATER. i vastly prefer to just take people at their word because it makes things far less complicated, usually, and there is little i will judge someone for...except for lying. you could be a self-aware narcissist, i've met one, she was a lovely individual; because she was working on healing, which meant working on recognizing the needs of others in order to have healthier, longer-lasting relationships; and as long as there is communication, reliability, and respect, honor, and honesty, we will be fine. i don't care nearly as much about empathy, sympathy, normalcy, neurotypicality, but by the melting grace of a snowball in Heck, i care very, very much about communication, reliability, respect, honor, and honesty

rant over