Asperger's
I'm imagining myself getting told that I have Asperger's by doctor I tested high on an online quiz that was recommended from doctors for me to take it because the way I was was a little kid apparently with symptoms for Asperger's I was scheduled test that will tell me if I have asked burgers or not at phoenix hospital I don't know what I want to do when I imagine myself getting told I've Asperger's I imagine myself breaking down crying and saying no you're lying this is obviously a fake test I imagine myself sitting in my room laying down doing anything but going out into this world when they tell me that I have Asperger's I took in the recommended test six times now the online one just to make sure that I don't have it I said no let me take it again no let me take it again I took it six times that night 16 this week I don't know who I am I'm thinking to myself I'm the way I am because of Asperger's I don't have a personality my mind is controlled by Asperger's I used to feel bad for people that had autism cuz I never knew what it was like I just thought that made you think like a little kid and your brain just didn't develop right that's what I used to think I used to feel bad for those people but if I actually have it I think I might have a mental breakdown I think I might actually have a mental breakdown and I'm not even joking I cry every time I think about even having Asperger's I don't know what to say because I felt bad for people that have autism but I'm sorry I don't want to be on your spectrum I was smart I went through school so easily I got good grades I read so fast in my mind and it was so easy for me but the fact that I could be even on the spectrum makes me cry a little and I'm sorry if that offends you but I just can't do it you have to understand I'm 15 years old I'm barely getting through life I have too much to deal with I can't deal with this too I'm not joking I might have a mental breakdown and I don't know what to do