kind of social anxiety,i guess?
Hey,I'm Amelie,I'm french so sorry if my sentence aren't correct.
I don't really know if i'm really suffering from social anxiety.It's like I can say to someone to fuck off but i can't have a small talk and make social accepted jokes. I begin a new therapy,she said to me that I suffer from a truth of rejection and I think it's true.It's like all the time when I go in a Party,or met new cools people I just said to myself "you are not appropriate,you are weird for people don't forget" and i start to avoid people and whitdrawn them. But also,currently I encourage myself during like 1/2 weeks to speak to people and I really trust in myself,feel like I'm weird but in a good way.
I don't understand why I'm like this,why I can't just be chill and cool,and not in the extreme way.It's very exhausted in some ways. I never met people whoes understand this,expect my Therapist aha. I think I only need to be secure with my social skills and It will be okay after,I hope.