Will I be ok?

Recently, my family's situation hasn't been good because of the racism we get from our neighbors, which involving my dogs that I love with all my heart have to be given away. My dogs mean a lot to me, they're probably the only reason why I'm alive even I don't do much in life. I feel guilty for forcing my parents to make it right for me because I just want them to be with me. I have a plan to move to another town after the covid situation there cools down, but now with this situation my dogs aren't safe here and I don't want to give them away, I have to make the decision right now and I will be moving in a few weeks with my dogs. Not only to save my dogs. But to grow, to get a job, to live independently which I absolutely don't know how. My anxiety is rising up at the moment, I'm overthinking and I'm so scared. I feel like a coward, I haven't even do anything yet I wanna give up. My sister told me I have to get out of my comfort zone to learn and grow yesterday, she's right and I know that but I don't know how to deal with these feelings. I'm not ready yet, I'm not ready to go outside, to the real adult world. I wrote down some small things I wanna achieve in life, so I can "motivate" myself but it's just getting scarier rather than clearer. I'm still not healed from what was hurting me, I never get the proper treatment for it, am I going to be like this forever? Wondering by myself, ignoring my feelings because it's too much to handle until I'm old enough to realize I'm no longer myself? I feel like already losing a lot of parts of me and I'm not ready for everything or anything at this moment. Ever since high school all I do was isolating myself from everything and everyone, my parents told me to go so I can grow and I'm not ready but I don't want to be like this forever.