Shy-ness to the Extreme
I am the shyest person you will ever meet. And I'm not entirely sure why. A lot of people think I do it on purpose, to get attention. Yeah,.... I'm trying to do the opposite. :) I'm a waitress, and have no problem at all talking to complete strangers, which is weird. I have a few friends and can usually talk to them pretty well if we are alone. But if we are in or near a large crowd of people , I just freeze up. I can't say a word and I feel like all eyes are on me. It's almost like stage fright,except it's all the time. If I absolutely HAVE to say something to someone in a crowd or with a group of people, I purposely don't make eye-contact. Because if I do, I just lose my nerve and say nothing. This is mainly because when I talk to a group of people, I don't know who to look at. Do you look at everyone as you talk, or just one person? This always makes me even more nervous to think about while I'm also trying to sort of ,almost, have a conversation, and then I just space out while I'm thinking about how this should all be done. And then it's over, and I have no clue what we even talked about. I know I probably sound like I'm coming from planet Mars, trying to learn "human ways of social interaction" but I'm just a normal Earthling like the rest of you. Any advice is much appreciated, thank you.