I hate myself for the jealously i always have for others that have friends and make connecions easier
(Spacing because punctuation sucks right now i know im being selfish)
This year or so has been a struggle of trying to get better and stuff.
i havnt made a connection with someone else like really in almost 2 years. Ive been going to programs amd all that and ive given up again as always.
im moving soon so ill try again but aaaaahhhhh my friend does this one program amd funds someone and has something to talk about while i barly have this one thing and have been trying for a while.
why am i never socially good enough why cant i make a connection im happy for my friend ok but always always even other people i know always while having tragedies they have some kinda social thing and social connection ok
why is it when ive been trying for how long i cant make one why am i so inadequate. Its so hard to be around others i dunnno slowly ill try and maybe i guess im just lonley because even the friends i have are barly holding on i was better at other times and it still didn't it is so hard to keep going to things when it never amounts.
@Magicalkitty17
I think maybe you need to look at it from a different perspective.. Making friends seems hard if you constantly are looking for a connection right away. Connection can take time..
Look for people with whom you have something in common with. Invite them to do that activity with you sometime, after time you may find that you have a great connection, if not you have a friend to do that particular activity with.
@Magicalkitty17 I'm so sorry. Sounds so rough. :( *hugs*
@Magicalkitty17
Don't be jealous of others. Some people are social butterflies so it's easier for them to make connections in a sec.
Everyone is different, and maybe for you it takes time to gain that connection.
I can assure you you'll find your true friends soon, who wouldn't mind taking some time to warm up to you.
Just be patient and be yourself, that is what's most important. :)
