Feeling ugh today

Feeling like ugh today. My dad was in the hospital. It was not covid related, but very serious it was life or death situation. It scared me when they said they might not have a room for my dad. I thought he might pass away. They said they would have to do surgery. It was risky either way. People are not realizing how bad this is. I want to say please wear a mask. If it was you, then you would care. But I do not, to be respectful. I have done my part to wear a mask and get vaccinated. But still scared. I have high blood pressure and thought I was having a heart attack. The nurses where rushing me in and treating patients rudely. It scares me that they are losing their emphatic side and it is people's lives and families. Others care this is good, but what if my dad died or now gets covid from being in the hospital. He will is not out of risk. I am so frustrated at others. Love my family.