Anxiety With My Therapist
I've always had worse anxiety with people of higher positions, or people older than me. Take that, and add on the fact that I am trusting this person with very personal information, and I have disabling anxiety.
I find it hard to talk to my therapist.. My voice starts to shake, and my head gets all foggy and I can't express how I feel correctly. I just feel so uncomfortable infront of her.. I can't trust her and I'm afraid of her judging me..
I've been to four different doctors for my social anxiety and not one of them I have felt comfortable with... ??
I've been thinking about talking to the school social worker but I'm already anxious just thinking about it..
Am I alone in feeling this way? How can I stop??
No, you are not alone in feeling this way. Many doctors and therapists have difficulty relating to people, and some doctors and therapists are actually hostile to people.
When you see a therapist for the first time, it is the therapist's job to ensure that you feel comfortable with them and trust them. It is not your job. You have social anxiety! You can't do their job for them.
Your school social worker might be someone you can relate to. It's possible. The only way to find out is to try talking to the social worker as an experiment. You can actually say that: "This is an experiment. I'm not sure I can talk to you without feeling very anxious." Maybe it will work for you this time.
If it doesn't work, there are plenty of other therapists. Some of them are actually good at this and you'll feel comfortable with them after the first 30 seconds.
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@RarelyCharlie I never thought about it that way. Thank you ♡ I would love to try to talk to as many therapists as possible, but I just don't have the money or time to do so. It's so hard to obtain one! The one I have now is funded by an orginisation for youths, and I had to wait months on a waiting list...so I can't back out of it, so to speak. I'll have to make the best of what I have... maybe I'll talk to her about it
For me I didnt hate the therapist during my first apointment, just anxious. So it took me months to finally calm down and be less anxious. But when talking about topics that are more sensitive I get anxious again. This is normal. Also because you are being vulnerable with another human and run the risk of getting hurt.
Another therapist I tried to see, I felt horriable after the very first and 2nd apointment. Couldnt do anything that day and cried lots. So that wasnt a good fit for me.
And yes that can be brought up with the therapist. How anxious you are or that you cant talk and so on. Anything goes. And they will help ease it. I dont manage eye contact all the time either and yes my voice breaks, gets low,etc. Again Normal.
Good Luck!
