what anxiety feels like
My heart throws itself against my rib cage. Thump, thump, thump.
It's like a curve ball, it hits its target, slides across the ribs, then bounces back from the force of impact.
My heart, being tendered like animal's meat from this beating. Making my heart more empathetic towards others' pain.
It hurts, it's painful. My heart is being squished until flattened, at times parts turned inside out.
PLEASE let it be free, let it beat softly, let it just be.
Where does my heart want to go? Am I too toxic that it's trying to escape? I've always wanted to run away from myself but with every step I'm still beside myself. The worst bully. I guess this is my heart's futile attempt to get away but unfortunately my ribs are its cage. I'm sorry.
Sorry for the spelling mistakes, I was distracted while writting this. This is what anxiety feels like to me, especially when it builds up over a few days, it makes me desperate for some relief. Just expressing it, is cathartic.
@reservedexcitment
What a harrowing and apt description of anxiety, you have done an astounding job of putting the fear and tension into words. This will really help those who don't suffer from anxiety to understand just how awful it is, as well as give voice to those who've lost theirs. I am so glad that it brings you release too, and thank you for having the courage to voice what's going on.
All my love,
Lyra
Bit of gardening: I moved this to the Anxiety Forum :)
Wow
You are heard my dear. It is not a simple world to be in..but you know what ? Find the beauty in it everyday. I look at myself in thr mirror and if I do not smile , I smile because I am healthy and alive.
Find the beauty in the sunlight, the birds chirpping ..nature.
I eases my anxiety theought he companionship of my cats. Do you have one ? A dog? They are magic.
I send you love and peace .
