Zero energy

Yesterday I went out with friends for the 1st time since the pandemic started. I've gone 3 times to the movies with my boyfriend, sometimes I have to go to the office, I've went to painting classes and to see my therapist, and twice I went with friends out of town to spend time in nature, but I haven't had a social hang out in the city in two years.

Before going out I started feeling like i wanted to cancel, and on the way I feel I couldn't breath properly, the mask was super tight on my face and I started to feel scared, it wasn't that bad but still it was an unpleasant sensation. Honestly i had a really good time with my friends, but still there was anxiety mixed with everything. On my way back home I felt the same breathing difficulty, and my stomach also felt weird. When I arrived I felt like I was finally safe, but I started feeling fatigued, and I still am. When I woke up today my body felt super weak, like what you feel sometimes after being sick for some days, I haven't been able to concentrate in work all day, and I kind of just want to go to sleep.

Trying to go back to "normal" after quarantining for so long is being really hard for me, honestly I feel like I don't ever want to be in social situations, work feels like there's no option, but when I have an option I want to say no and stay home. I feel like the thing tha affected me most yesterday was being in public transport and moving in a giant city like the one I live in. I feel like my batteries died and I can't charge them back :(