What if’s in my future (more of a little rant sorry)
I feel like I’m in limbo right now. On the one hand, there’s the possibility of having to flee my state in the next year (don’t wanna go into why), and on the other hand there’s the chance it won’t happen, and the fact that I just need to live life as normal. There’s this fear of all of these what ifs like “if we go would it be the straw that breaks the camels back for all of my friendships?” And “if I voiced why we may go would I be laughed at or called an idiot?” It’s simultaneously frustrating and scary. I hate it but what if I’m just making a big deal out of something that doesn’t happen anyway? That’s why I don’t talk to friends about it, I’ll seem like an idiot or a drama queen if nothing ends up happening. Also sorry I’m probably being annoying again and I’m not sure this is even the right part of the forums but here’s the post anyway.