Unsure
From childhood until now, I always feel confused about feelings and things I like.
I'm not sure about my own happiness, I should feel happy if I received gift, but I feel nothing. Up until now I dont know what happy feeling is, I feel unsure, is it feeling like floating or what?
What my favorite color is? I'm unsure, what is my fav color?
What is my favorite movie? I dont know
My role model? I dont know
There are a lot of things I don't know how to answer, I wonder how other people seems so happy when receiving gift, I only mimic them or remembering, If I received gift I should feel happy, not the happiness itself.
Also, I'm very indecisive and unsure of myself
How should I react if I received compliment? I don't know, I need reference how to react every single thing
I feel like a blank paper, unsure what to do, what to feel, and how to react
I need a guide or reference of every single thing
I just don't know what to do anymore
I can't express my thought nor my feeling, can't work well too
Always questioning everything to small detail, don't have own idea how basic thing works
Do anyone feel this? How to overcome it?
@Spring6976
You know what's amazing about a blank paper? Is that you can write just about anything, draw anything beyond your imagination. I understand that you have felt unsure since childhood, uncertain about your passion, your dreams and interests in life. Being this way can really take a toll on your sense of self, as you feel you are not sure how to express yourself or even understand yourself at times. But we discover and learn more about ourselves at different stages in life. It seems like the things you do are more by how they are supposed to be done and less by how you wish for them to be done. It makes sense because you mentioned that it has been that way since childhood.
To make that first pencil/brush stroke on your blank paper, it's going to take effort. Because you don't know where to start. But you have to start somewhere right? It is possible. It is. I really hope you can talk it out with some of the listeners here and we can try and help you figure it out. I'd say you just made your first stroke by making this post and reaching out to us. I appreciate that very much. Please do reach out to me or other listeners here, if you wish to have further support. You can do this! Step by step.
Take care Spring 
Hi all, I can relate to this as I to feel the same at times. It’s also stem back from my childhood to. Been a man I feel I carry a lot of pressure on myself with emotions or should I say lack of emotion. I’ll struggle to think about myself and put myself and my well-being first before anyone else. I also get confused when it come to what I would call a colourful conversation with my wife ( I prefer it to be black or white). I keep getting told I need to work on myself. Find the real me but it’s always a struggle to. I have listen to self help book which seem to work for a bit but then you gradually head back to the same old ways. I struggle to sit I have to be doing something with my time off keeping busy. Weather this is a cover up I don’t no. When it comes to feeling I can only try to understand how the other person is feeling, I find it so much easy with my children to do this but with my wife I real do struggle. I always feel she is a few steps higher than me. Is she really no but it’s the lack of self worth the reason I’m feeling like this. Hopefully a little insight into how I’m feeling and to let you know your not on your own with this.
@affectionateStrawberries2307
Being a man have a lot of pressure, I'm just female first child already feel pressure..
Yes! I'm agree, when it ends up colorful conversation I feel confused a lot, how to respond in this situation. Awkward silence....Even now I'm trying hard not to say wrong things, I hope you are okay with my phrase, I don't mean anything wrong.
Talking to someone about emotion and such, is hard, like walking in edge of knive, I'm afraid if I talk wrongly, and hurting other, so I end up avoiding heart to heart conversation and talk about current news, movie, or song, it is more easier to talk about topic like that than, things will end up horribly wrong, a safe discussion if I must define.
Same, I don't know what is real me either, my school tell us we must have dream and passion and self something, but I struggle, and I just write similarly.
I think know what you mean, rather than stuck and making it worse, better to do something else, at least I've done something, sense of achievement.
I think it is easier to understand the other feeling and try hard not to make them mad than making your own opinion then end up regretting it. Which end up the first problem, what is real me? //analyze it, I'm not professional.
I hope you will find a way to solve your problems too <3
@Spring6976 Do you think this might be the side-off effect of a broader situational condition? E.g., I have social anxiety, which at one point caused me to shrink from responsibilities — the central aspects that should render my life meaningful and engaging — that got me depressed ( sad ), and then I have experienced the same things you just mentioned here because I was so divorced from life, dwelling there at the very bottom. I was incessantly reacting to everything; I wasn't the measure of things; I was playing a dim role in other people's drama. I was not putting my desires forward. So do you think this might be the countereffect of a broader situational condition?
@danielioan
I don't know about that, since I was young I feel blank then end up having social anxiety not the other way?, I feel blank which end up making me anxious and depressed(?). Why am I like this, wronged.
Everytime I found a favorite thing to do I feel both confused am I really liking this?, and relief I seems to like this thing. I only know a bit things that I really like.
I can relate to dim role, When people making drama or gossip passionately, I only background board. xD
I seem to be invisible not desiring anything, as long I can sleep, eat, and alive it is okay. Very monotone.
I'm sorry to hear that, I hope you broken off from this blank state too. I wish you all the best