Today, i am. But it is not enough.

I have been retaking therapy again (been missing some appointments though) and she (therapist) has helped me make some progress. My meds work (when i remember i need to tske them) and some days i feel like i might be ok eventually.

Not today, and intermixed with the good days there are days like this: i am restless and i go through the motions but i feel as if I'm not in my own body. My head hurts. Nothing is good enough and even though i might have succesess today, i don't feel like they count. Sometimes it becomes unbearable and i shut down almost entirely and just sleep all day. And then i snap out of it a couple days later and deal with the aftermath, and it just feel like im starting from zero once again.

How can i deal with the bad days?