This is me
Anxiety has been lingering for over 20 yrs. As I am older and my life has changed dramatically, I am finding it is more difficult to deal with. I have been really struggling since March of this year, a bit in January when I lost my place I thought I could stay for a while, so being homeless sucked. Now I am on my way to having a place to live again, but have to wait almost a month to move in. Sometimes I worry that this isn't going to happen, I have been let down too many times, so I find it difficult to believe anything positive can happen. Thanks for reading my partial story.
@jr50 Hi, I am so sorry for your struggle. Anxiety can be difficult to handle, and life handing out lemons definitely doesn't help. Although I'm glad that you have a place to live in, once again! 
I understand how difficult it is to believe something good might happen when everything in the past has gone wrong. 
As difficult as it is, try and appreciate the smallest of good things that happen to you each day. It could be anything such as your courage or not giving up spirit, waking up with determination despite what's going on, good weather.. anything at all. This might help shift your focus to something good.
If the above is something you can't bring yourself to do currently, that's completely understandable. You need not stress yourself trying to do it. Instead, we can work on the other part which is about you fearing you'll be let down. I recommend you shift your thoughts to something else as soon as expectations or fear regarding something (in this case, a place to live) come up. I'm not asking you to be negative about any of it but what I mean is to put aside thoughts about the future. Let things happen when they would. You have brilliantly survived up until now and I'm sure you would be able to handle whatever life puts across you. But let's cross the bridge once werew there, and not think about what may happen before it does.
If you'd like to try, listen to guided meditations or do yoga or breathing exercises. They help with anxiety. Also, when you fear overwhelming thoughts are coming to you, count from 10 to 1 slowly, or ask yourself to pause and see if it works. Another thing you could do is shift focus to your surroundings and name 5 things you can smell, 5 sounds you hear, 5 objects you see and so on. This exercise would divert your attention from future possibilities to the present.
Please feel free to write to me or any of the wonderful listeners on 7cups, if you ever feel distressed. We are here for you.
