The worst
This is THE WORST my anxiety has left me in my life. I was told yesterday that I had to run a very nerve wracking errand today and last night my anxiety presented itself in the form of sleep paralysis, insomnia and crying all night. This is easily the worst I’ve felt in a very long time and it is all because of my anxiety. The errand was not even done. I hate it so much. This illness is so debilitating, I want to be able to do things on a whim without my body going into panic mode. Without being dependent on “safe settings”. I really need some support right now. Positive words. Please send some. ❤️❤️❤️
Hang in there. I'm in the midst of a flare up due to a job change, a move, and covid19 (all within one week). I have 3 young kids and am struggling with sleep, which exacerbates my anxiety and panic.
A couple things I've done to get back on track:
1. Get back with a counselor
2. Journalling
3. Forcing myself to eat
4. Calling my doctor to change/increase my SSRI plus get sleeping medication
5. Forcing myself to meditate.
6. Getting rid of all of my anxiety self help books and focusing solely on what my therapist determines to be the best course of action.
7. Not googling anything. It'll make your worries about anxiety/intrusive thoughts worse.
You are not alone. It's debilitating, and it's very hard for people to understand who haven't been through it. It makes you feel like you're losing your mind. My dad, who has ocd and anxiety, told me "All you have to do is the next right thing". And when it comes to severe anxiety, that's true. I just take it minute by minute, one step at a time.