The last two days have been a level 10 for anxiety.

I feel like I can't even relax anymore. I have a parent with a substance problem and a sibling who is incredibly angry and has proven that he can be violent towards anyone.

I have been okay for 4 months, but as recent as 3-4 days ago, I have been experiencing terrible anxiety. My guard is always up. I am fortunate enough to be able to work from home, so 5 days a week for a couple of hours at a time, I am home in peace because my sibling has to work and my parent isn't really a nuisance when they are in their right state of mind.

But when my parent is incoherent and my sibling comes home, I become very stressed. I feel my whole essence sink inside my body and I feel confined in my room. Lately I have been in the mindset of protecting my energies.

The weekends are the worst because it's all 3 of us here, and because of the pandemic, I have been feeling like I'm trapped. On the weekends I try everything to ignore what's going on and just pray to get to Monday so I can have that peace of mind. I don't want to get into too many details, but I just want someone who may understand how I feel.