Lost

Today I just can't stop thinking. Can't stop worrying. Can't stop being anxious.

Half the time I don't even know why I'm like this. I can bearly sleep at night I just lay awake with my heart thumping. And when I do fall asleep it's not for very long. When I wake up I don't want to do life. I literally want to die. I don't understand why, especially when there's nothing to be anxious about for the day ahead. I go to school feeling like everyone's always watching me, like they know what's wrong with me. I know no one looks at me but my head just doesn't. I always just smile at school and stuff all my feelings right down deep so no one can possibly get a glimpse. I help my friends with all their problems and they all rely on me so much. Little do they know that I have a problem too and I don't know how to fix it. I randomly feel tears swelling up during the day, I tell people I yawned. I become all choked up, I tell people I'm sick.

I just don't know what to do.