I'm too lazy and that makes me anxious
If I am to evaluate me as a person I would say I'm pretty messed up.
Most of the time I have so little energy to do anything at all.
My mother complains a lot about me, urging me to be more motivated just like herself. It irks me that I should constantly listen to her complains, but what I hate the most is that I am agreeing with her.
Yes, Mom. I am too lazy. I want to be like you. I want to be more motivated.
But the more I think about "motivation", the more I don't wanna do anything.
I procrastinate a lot. I know I gotta do it NOW, but my body doesn't want to. I feel chained in this body.
I come up with thousand of ideas a day, but I never work on them. My head is buzzing with ideas and I can't let them free. I'm too lazy too. That's why I'm anxious. I wanna be a success, but it feels like my body doesn't.
I feel like a bird in a cage. She wants to be let free, but the cage is locked. Someone has the key, but that someone is not me. I'm just a locked bird after all.
What is wrong with me? :(