Imposter syndrome
My depression and anxiety have been really bad the past month. On paper, I feel like I should be in love with my life. I just moved to a beautiful new town, I have been in the best relationship for the past year, I have an adorable new cat, and I have a new job that aligns with my degree and seems like it is a good entry position for a dream career. BUT despite all of this, I feel miserable. It feels like there's constantly a raincloud over my head and it feels like I'm not good enough for any of its. I can't find the joy in anything. All I want to do is lay in bed and cry.
I can't help but bash myself for being so ungrateful for what I have. But at the same time, I feel so miserable and unworthy of it all.
Does anyone else feel like the life in their head and their actual life are completely different??? It's disorienting.