I'm afraid of everything...
I feel like I'm afraid of pretty much everything because of the severity of my traumas. I'm afraid of aging. I'm afraid of dying. I'm afraid of pain. I'm afraid of Hell. I'm afraid of being alone and having no friends or spouse ever. I'm afraid of sleeping. I'm afraid of weight gain. I'm afraid of never being mentally well. I'm afraid of health issues. I'm afraid of more abuse. I'm afraid of my family. I'm afraid of never seeing my abusive family again. I'm afraid of punishment. I'm afraid of things getting worse. I'm afraid of needing the hospital. I'm afraid of losing my cat. I'm afraid of failure. I'm afraid of never succeeding. I'm afraid of living...
@SweetTess91
Hi SweetTess, it's funny because my name is also Tess and I too fear everything. Although I haven't conquered this at all, I have learned to improve my ability to manage fear by figuring out why I'm so afraid all the time. For me the reason is because I was raised to be afraid. My mom was always warning me about everything and my dad was not much different. I grew up thinking things only get worse and there's no way to stop that. Realizing that this is where my fear comes from gives me the strength to challenge those fearful thoughts when they come up.
It helped me a lot to look at successful and happy people (specifically Joe Rogan) and listen to how they view life. I found that they all saw life as something to keep improving at. And although it's hard to keep that mindset when I get down on myself, I try to think of life as something that will only get better if I keep doing the things that I know are good for me. So everyday I workout, stretch, read some books about health, wealth, love or happiness, and I try to eat as healthy as I can.
Another thing that helped me was reading books about health. I found that in today's world people like to scare you into thinking you're going to get sick no matter what you do and it will probably be bad enough that you'll have pay a doctor a ton of money to fix you. That's just absolutely not true. If you take care of yourself and do all the things you know you have to do be healthy, you'll be fine. After reading about fasting and diet, I was brave enough to fully get rid of my health insurance. Something I never even considered before. I have a couple very enlightening books that I can suggest if you're interested!
I know that this is a long reply, and I don't even expect you to read all of this, but I resonated with your post so much I felt I had to give it my all in the reply. Basically the realization that I made that helped me so much was that I have control over what happens to me. Sure accidents happen, but if you work everyday to make yourself strong and healthy both mentally and physically you've prepared yourself for anything that life can throw at you. We all have it in us to be practically indestructible warriors. It only takes time and some effort.
I hope this helps give you a bit of hope! Stay strong and know that there is another Tess out there fighting the same battle.