I feel so helpless and guilty for it
I don’t know if this is how this works, so forgive me if this is out of line in any way……………. I was in a minor fender bender about a month ago. I have been undergoing treatment for whiplash and a (slightly) herniated disc. My pain has gone down significantly. Recently I had a weird experience where my leg “disappeared” and I fell hard. It was like my brain forgot I had a leg or something. Anyway, that made my pain go way up again. I’ve felt extremely useless. I can only do things that don’t require me to bend pretty much at all at the hips. This means that my significant other is having to take over all of the things I can’t do. I feel awful. I hate that I’m in pain, but I hate feeling useless more. I can feel my self esteem( which I already struggle with) just plummeting and my anxiety skyrocketing because I feel like I should do more even though i know in my logical brain I probably shouldn’t. My anxiety makes me tense up which makes the pain worse. I’m just feeling a bit stuck. Anybody with advice/support/can relate would be greatly appreciated! Anyway, that’s my rant for the day. Thank you for taking the time to read this! God bless!
First of all, I am SO sorry that this happened. The entire experience in general is frustrating and i definitely hope you continue to recover and get better. With that being said, remember that this is a problem out of your hands! Our loved ones, especially our s/o, they want to be there to help when we need it, your worth is not based in how much you did or how productive you were in a day. Your worth is purely internal, there is no clock or measurement for it. You aren't doing anything wrong by recovering. And you're being productive and doing the most you can while healing! Give yourself credit!
