I feel so alone
The title says it all. I'm 20 years old and I suffer with social anxiety and depression. It gets harder everyday. I dropped out of school because my anxiety was way too much. I have no friends at all and it's hard with my social anxiety. The only person I have is my boyfriend of almost 4 years.. He really is all that I have but I feel so bad about it because I don't want to seem "clingy." He knows about my condition and he is very supportive. He says I'm not clingy but it still feels like it... I don't want to rely on him. It sucks. I feel all alone. I don't know how to get back up. I don't know how to talk to people, make conversation, or be social in general. My anxiety makes me feel like I CAN'T do anything. The feeling of no being able to do anything is what actually caused my depression. I do get happy at times but then once I fall down it feels like I just can't get back up. It feels like I have fallen deep into an abyss and every minute that passed by it just seems like I'm drowning even more. I HATE feeling soooo alone.... I HATE the feeling of not being able to do anything that I want. I avoid everything to avoid having anxiety attacks. Nothing is worse than having an anxiety attack in public. This really is a horrible horrible feeling... 
@DevinaDee95
We all need friends, even if they're from a different place or that you can talk to them on the internet. I have this problem too and it's hard trying to connect with new people or trying to talk to them. If you ever want a friend, I can be a friend if that is a start.
However, to slowly "get over" anxiety attacks, even when at home is use all five senses to make sure that they are real. Even if in public. Touch your finger tips, move your arms, and make noises with your mouth to hear. If you need a friend, I can be the start of one, even if it's awkward at first.
