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Hey, thank you in advanced.

ive always struggled with social anxiety, back home I have just one friend who Ive had since first grade- he doesnt want to date or marry, doesnt want friends outside of Reddit and is fine with all of that.

i want friends, I long for it, I want a relationship, Im a man and have been single for five years since my ex broke up with me in college (I dropped out right after).

this year I decided to hike the entire Appalachian trail to expose myself to people in an environment where family isnt around, friends arent around, theres no cell service and the only people to talk to are the ones around you who are also hiking. Im over 900 miles in and I had made a lot of progress until recently.

i had somehow managed to swallow my gut and talk to and make friends with a diverse group of super friendly people, most of them were older than me, but they really liked my sense of humor and we were having tons of fun together.

the other night however, we went to a brewery and I got belligerently drunk, tried to take a shower in a utility closet and then proceeded to walk naked through the camp ground, trampling one of my new friends tents in the process.

i am staying in touch with the guy with the tent and am going to pay for the damages, im apologizing to everyone I see, but im so embarrassed, it was hard enough breaking the ice with these people with my shyness, now I have to show my face after they all have seen my manhood.

​just need help