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Hi

im new here . One of the few things I go through is health anxiety. Its one of the tricky mental disorders to get through and get over for me. Im already a person who values taking care of herself , so Im always in a self-monitoring mode. Even if I am distracted, Ill sometimes monitor myself while working or talking.

By self-monitoring , I mean that I literally listen to myself and every twitch that may come or twinge that comes....or Ill look to see , in case it comes...if I see a bump, I google what it is..Ill probably have a leg ache but think of something more. If I have a panic attack, while panicking , Im monitoring myself to see if this is the same things Ive dealt with before (*TRIGGERING /SCROLL PAST IF SENSITIVE TO READ FOR YOU -sorry , only want to describe what i only sometimes go through* sweaty palms, sometimes-palpitations, hyperventilating, tense muscles , butterflies in stomach, grinding teeth, shaky hands)

if I feel anything other than that, I panic but yet forget Anxiety brings on a bunch of things. Its crazy, trying to center myself and not go to a clinic to be reassured. I downloaded a Dr app, and I ask questions almost daily. I have to delete it. Im in medical debt because of the countless visits. I cry often because Im ashamed of this, my boyfriend now knows of this & I want to run away.

Anyways, what do you guys deal with, with this? Has anyone ever overcame this & what methods have you done ?